Changes

It has been a long time since I have blogged - life has been busy. I still can't access the Internet from my laptop, making it hard to blog   So I decided to try it with my iPad. I am hoping that it works out

There are a lot of changes in my life right now that involve my job and me personally. At the beginning of May, I decided to get healthy - for me. I have a low self-esteem and needed to do something for me. I felt very selfish but I needed to take care of me. I suffer from fibromyalgia and this time of the year I crash. But, right now I am doing pretty good. 

I started walking every morning, early. I just walked around the block.  Now, I am up to a mile or two every morning, depending  on time. 

This is a picture I took from my walk a couple of days ago.

I started eating healthier giving up red meat and eating more fruits and veggies. I gave up Starbucks except for once a week -it was easier than I thought. In the process of this. I have lost 16 pounds and one dress size. I feel so much better and have tons of energy. This week has been tough since I am winding down my school year. But, with these changes I will make it and it is for me.

Today is the day

Today is the day for the planned Csection, we are all excited to meet these two darlings. My daughter in law made it to 38 weeks with twins, she is amazing. I have so many emotions, at the moment. I am excited, scared, nervous and anxious. I can't wait to hold them. To count their fingers and toes. To shower them with kisses. To hug my son.

Today is the day.

Decision

The decision has been made, now we need to see if the pieces of the puzzle will fit together.  I hope so, because I need this change.  My heart and soul needs this change.  But, more importantly my body needs this change.  We should know by mid-May,  please say a little prayer for me.

Head Spinning

My head is spinning with trying to work out the details of retirement.  I, really, want to retire this year, but I am scared about the loss of the money.  The economy is not in great shape.  I was able to stay home with the kids when they were growing up and sell my crafts.  But it scares me about doing that again.  I have no regrets about going to school and getting my degrees. 

I love teaching, but it is changing and that scares me.  I am worried that they are not looking at the child, but looking at tests scores.  This year, I had 5 more kids in my class.  It is hard to take care of all of their individual needs.  I want to so badly, but there isn't enough time.  I feel guilty.  I started teaching because I didn't want a child to fall through the cracks.  I don't feel like I can meet the needs of 29 kids, but I want to - I am making myself sick trying too.

I am sick more and I am having more issues with my fibro.  I have a co-worker that thinks differently than most people, that makes it hard.  I am excited to see my kids and then as soon as I get to school, there are issues with her. 

We took a big cut when hubby retired to go back to Hawaii to take care of his mom.  It has taken, almost 2 years for me to figure it out.  I will be taking the exact same pay cut he did, but his retirement is more than mine - since I haven't been teaching as long.  My boys, really, want me to retire.  One of them has had to put me in bed some nights because I can't walk up the stairs - I hurt so much.  They want me around for my grand kids.

I am on break this month and I have meal planned every week - even cooked.  I was shocked at the amount that we have been spending at the grocery store, but I know it is less that I would have spent eating out every night, because I was too tired too cook or didn't have anything in the house to cook.

I think I am just scared, because once I make this decision - I can't go back.

The Twins are Coming

I am linking up with Sugar Bee for her Take-a-Look Tuesday, make sure to check out the other blogs this week.  This is my first time linking up, so excited.

I am so excited, the twins should be here any day.  The doctor estimated Miss B to be 5 lbs 7 oz and Miss R to be 5 lbs 12 oz and healthy.  My daughter in law is already dilated to 1.5.  The doctor thinks that they will be here by next Monday, which would be great because my hubby leaves to go back to Hawaii on Wednesday.  He really wants to meet his grand daughters before he leaves.  Her csection is scheduled for April 8th, but doctor says that they are ready.

Isn't she so cute, she is all baby.  She is only 5 feet and maybe a size 2, love her.  They asked me to make quilts for the girls.  They picked out the main owl fabric.  I bought the polka dots in Hawaii. 

 

I finished the first top for Miss B.

Miss R's quilt fabric.  I need to sew on the borders, hopefully will finish it tomorrow.  I won the solid charm pack on the quilt hop in Hawaii, it worked out perfectly.

Quilting makes my heart sing.

 

Beach

We went to the beach last week, it was so relaxing.  The weather at our house was hot, but at the beach it was overcast and cool - still loved it.  We had breakfast at our favorite place across from the beach.  They make the best breakfast burritos, they are huge.  After breakfast, we went walking along the beach and found a bunch of shells,  I love looking for shells.  Everytime, we go we find a bunch of the same kind of shell - not a variety - just the same kind.  I haven't collected these before. 

This was the first time, Keahi had been to the beach.  Oh my gosh, he just kept looking at the waves.  We had the little guy all bundled up because of the cold.  I hope he is a surfer like his daddy and grandpa - that would be so cool.

I need to get some sewing done today for the twins, but they have a doctor's appointment and I get to go - I'm so excited.  We should find out how big they are today.  I can't believe that they will be here in 2 weeks, maybe sooner.

Long Time

It has been a long time, since I paid attention to this blog.  My teaching blog seems to be getting most of the attention these days - which is strange because  my heart is really with this blog and my grand kids' blog.

I have been thinking about the decision that needs to be made with career/life.  Huby and I have been doing a lot of talking, since he came home a couple days ago.  We are working towards the goal of me retiring by next year.  It would be wonderful if it would work out for this year - I could spend more time with him in Hawaii.  We have a common goal to save money or not spend without thinking about it first.

For example, we went to Panera Bread for lunch yesterday - a birthday treat for me.  The bill was $22.00 for 2 lunches - are you kidding me.  It is one of our favorite places to eat - we eat there a lot.  But, I never really looked at the final bill.  We ordered, paid for it, ate it and enjoyed it.  Hubby and I looked at what we had to eat - nothing that we couldn't recreate at home, for a whole lot less.  The most important part, was the time that we spent together, just hanging out and talking.  That part was priceless.

At home, we hurry to make a meal, eat it quickly, clean up and plop somewhere because we are tired.  When we eat out, there is more time to actually enjoy the meal together.  That is what we need to look at - the meal enjoyment part.  So, now, we are on a journey to make meals more enjoyable and spend less time and money doing it.  The best of both worlds.

As I type this - hubby and youngest son have spent the afternoon cooking in the kitchen together.  Hubby showing son a family recipe.  I will clean up after them.  I love hearing their voices, together while I was knitting one of the baby blankets.  That is a great meal together.  One that can be enjoyed all day.

I am looking forward to this new quest and hopefully, retirement soon.